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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 07:12

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She wouldn,t have been !

I am still studying engineering. I feel worried being an average student. Can I get a good job in placement, buy a house, and a car? I don't know why I feel this.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

What did i know ?

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

All the time i was locked up.

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Why am I sweating so much when I try to do anything?

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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I said to her

He was dying to do it , i knew.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I will be 64.

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My family never makes their pension either.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She was in good health!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But it wasn’t much.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

One cannot live in the past .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Who then, do I blame.?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Comes on , in middle age.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I could never make a relationship work though!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He resisted the act ,that day.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She found it foreign!.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But, we were locked up after school.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But ive been too sick for many years..

I was seconnd youngest,

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

So whats the point in blame.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I waited trembling.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My life is so biszare .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Im still living with it.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I think the readers, may guess!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I write beautiful poetry .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

It was going to be , some day.

I was 9 years of age.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Would this be the day?

(And it was in our own minds.)

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I have no regrets .

So, i spoilt her more .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

And i lived it daily.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Was to survive, this bastard.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Put me off passion for life!!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

We were not on the streets..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

This is soul school!.

He knew the spot.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was scared of men, in general

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was very sick at this time too.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Especially a lifetime of it.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

When she asked me how she looked .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Ive learnt so much.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I don,t even have a pension.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She loved him until the end.

We all went to grammer schools

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She married twice! .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!